Wednesday

Our power came back on Thursday. Four full days without. You never really realize how reliant you are on modern convieninces until you don't have them. You also never really realize how thankful you are to have them. Heat, hot water, a working refrigerator. Its amazing that there are people in our country who live without them, every day.

Tomorrow, November 10th, is our anniversary. Four years ago, I walked down the aisle of my childhood synagouge, hand in hand with my parents, tears running down my face, and married a man I had only known a year in a half, but who I knew was going to be my husband for the rest of forever. We rode in an old car to the reception and danced and danced and had a wonderful time.

On Saturday night, Michael's going to stay at Bubbie and Poppie's and L and I are going to have our second childless night in nine and a half months. We have reservations at Ruth's Chris, where we got engaged. Maybe we'll go to a movie, maybe we'll just sleep. I do miss the sleep.

The Beaner cried when I left him this morning. I hate when he does that. I waited down the hall a bit so that he couldn't see me, and I tried to hear and comfort him with my thoughts. Stop crying bud, I'll be back after your nap. Go play with your friends, play with the toys. I love you, bud. I snuck back over and peeked through the window. Ms. Diane gave him his binky and he was better. Please don't let him keep the binky once he gets over it, I wanted to say to her but couldn't for fear that he would see me. I don't want him to have the binky if he's just hanging out and playing, I said to her in my thoughts (and have said to her many times out loud). I hope he got over the crying. I hope she took the binky away.